mollywobbles867: (fringe-olivia)
We found out today that my mom's cancer is stage 4. It has spread to her lung(s), liver, and bone. She is going to be in treatment for a long time.

I don't know what to do.

So, I do what I can and I am keeping it together so far. I had an appointment today to get my Zoloft refilled, so I asked to have my dosage upped. I am going to take one and a half 50mg pills (rather than just one 50mg) to start. Hopefully I can just stay with that rather than move up to 100mg. Unfortunately, they don't make 75mg pills.

I applied for a full-time job as an advisement counselor at my alma mater. We need the extra income and I just can't work retail anymore, especially so far away. The commute is killing me.

Date: 2014-09-03 10:37 pm (UTC)From: [identity profile] lexiewallace.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry honey. If you ever need to talk, let me know.

Date: 2014-09-05 12:25 am (UTC)From: [identity profile] mollywobbles867.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb. I may take you up on that one day. I don't have many people to lean on. Like, one bff lives in AL and on vacation with her husband in FL right now. She's emotionally supportive, but also very busy. Our conversations are short. Another bff lives in town, but has 4 kids, a full-time job plus a side job doing cover art or a book. She's also not really the comforting type. She's very much like a man and just offers solutions. There's no solution here. My sister is taking worse than I am, so I'm wary of trying to lean on her. Idk, I'm just afraid I'm going to combust. I broke down crying during my lunch break today. I let myself cry for two minutes and then pulled it together. I do that every time.

Date: 2014-09-05 12:37 am (UTC)From: [identity profile] lexiewallace.livejournal.com
It's so hard hon (which you already know unfortunately) but I just went through it with dad (he had ALS). It sucks to feel so powerless and scared all the time. Like you have to be strong all the time but you need so even else to be strong for you :(. Anyway, holler if you need me. Dm me on twitter or here on LJ and I'll be there.

Date: 2014-09-05 11:36 pm (UTC)From: [identity profile] mollywobbles867.livejournal.com
Oh, man I'm sorry about your dad. And thanks.

Date: 2014-09-06 01:25 pm (UTC)From: [identity profile] mollywobbles867.livejournal.com
Oh, man I'm sorry about your dad. And thanks.

Date: 2014-09-05 10:35 pm (UTC)From: [identity profile] mollywobbles867.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb. I may take you up on that one day. I don't have many people to lean on. Like, one bff lives in AL and on vacation with her husband in FL right now. She's emotionally supportive, but also very busy. Our conversations are short. Another bff lives in town, but has 4 kids, a full-time job plus a side job doing cover art or a book. She's also not really the comforting type. She's very much like a man and just offers solutions. There's no solution here. My sister is taking worse than I am, so I'm wary of trying to lean on her. Idk, I'm just afraid I'm going to combust. I broke down crying during my lunch break today. I let myself cry for two minutes and then pulled it together. I do that every time.

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