Thanks, bb. I may take you up on that one day. I don't have many people to lean on. Like, one bff lives in AL and on vacation with her husband in FL right now. She's emotionally supportive, but also very busy. Our conversations are short. Another bff lives in town, but has 4 kids, a full-time job plus a side job doing cover art or a book. She's also not really the comforting type. She's very much like a man and just offers solutions. There's no solution here. My sister is taking worse than I am, so I'm wary of trying to lean on her. Idk, I'm just afraid I'm going to combust. I broke down crying during my lunch break today. I let myself cry for two minutes and then pulled it together. I do that every time.